Why this? Why now?

I have given a great deal of thought to whether or not a blog is right for me. I have been on an amazing journey - some of it very sad, some of it profoundly joyful. Transformation is possible - I know because it is happening with me.

I can't say for sure when it all started, other than it started happening with tremendous regularity upon my 40th birthday. This may be a rather normal occurence - you reach a certain age and start wondering if this is all there is in life. Am I doing what I'm meant to be doing? Are my beliefs real - what are my beliefs exactly?

Here's a smattering of the journey -

I got a divorce and began to discover and explore life from a much different perspective.

I began thinking about my health and researching and reaching out to learn things like: what I should be doing to avoid heart disease. The book, The China Study, changed my life. I am now a vegetarian. This also led me to quit smoking....and finally to stop drinking, too (I don't care what the studies say - just eat the grapes instead).

I have embarked upon an incredible spiritual journey - from a comparative religions class, to studying Ayurvedic living (of which I'm now studying to become an instructor), to learning more about Buddhism, and, as documented here in my blog, an active study of A Course In Miracles.

I am in a place in my life where I finally recognize very consciously that what I put in my mind and in my body is what comes out. As I am reminded most days when listening to Deepak Chopra's soul affirmations, "My body is the garden of my soul."

May I be of vessel of spirit, of loving-compassion.

Yes, I do think a blog is right for me. Thank you for joining me.
Namaste,

mac

Sunday, November 6, 2011

Day 310 - Lesson 309

I will not fear to look within today.

It's interesting that this would be the lesson today.  I was reflecting on all of the many changes that have been occurring in my life over the last few weeks - and wow - it could get very easy to be afraid.  Life is moving fast and I've made some decisions that will change my life in myriad ways.  This is all normal and natural - it's just that it can be overwhelming when so many things start happening all at once.  My Sunday gatherings, my radio spots, Primordial Sound Meditation Teacher Training, the purchase of a new house....I almost feel like I'm free falling and while I know there is a parachute that will deploy, I don't know when it will and I have no idea where I'll find myself when it does.  This isn't a bad thing.  The difficulty is in releasing my breath (figuratively) and trusting that the parachute will deploy exactly when it is meant to.  AND, importantly, there is nothing to fear inside myself.  I am a divine creation and God only wants my happiness.  I am here to help and to serve and that is exactly what I'm doing.  I must trust that when I look inside - it's all good, it's all good.
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