Why this? Why now?

I have given a great deal of thought to whether or not a blog is right for me. I have been on an amazing journey - some of it very sad, some of it profoundly joyful. Transformation is possible - I know because it is happening with me.

I can't say for sure when it all started, other than it started happening with tremendous regularity upon my 40th birthday. This may be a rather normal occurence - you reach a certain age and start wondering if this is all there is in life. Am I doing what I'm meant to be doing? Are my beliefs real - what are my beliefs exactly?

Here's a smattering of the journey -

I got a divorce and began to discover and explore life from a much different perspective.

I began thinking about my health and researching and reaching out to learn things like: what I should be doing to avoid heart disease. The book, The China Study, changed my life. I am now a vegetarian. This also led me to quit smoking....and finally to stop drinking, too (I don't care what the studies say - just eat the grapes instead).

I have embarked upon an incredible spiritual journey - from a comparative religions class, to studying Ayurvedic living (of which I'm now studying to become an instructor), to learning more about Buddhism, and, as documented here in my blog, an active study of A Course In Miracles.

I am in a place in my life where I finally recognize very consciously that what I put in my mind and in my body is what comes out. As I am reminded most days when listening to Deepak Chopra's soul affirmations, "My body is the garden of my soul."

May I be of vessel of spirit, of loving-compassion.

Yes, I do think a blog is right for me. Thank you for joining me.
Namaste,

mac

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

Day 305 - Lesson 304

Let not my world obscure the sight of Christ.

I can obscure my holy sight, if I intrude my world upon it....Perception is a mirror, not a fact.

I really appreciate that line about perception being a mirror and not a fact.  It is so true.  It also says...And what I look on is my state of mind, reflected outward.  I have been thinking a lot, too much, about my meditation practice.  Meditation is all about gentle silence and going inward and reducing the activity of the mind to enter a restful state of alertness.  I have been so caught up in feeling overwhelmed with too much work and not enough time for study that I've turned this certification process into a grind instead of letting go and appreciating it.  However, turning off 40+ years of programming is not easy.....the meditation helps for sure and all the ancient wisdom helps, too. I just need to remember that some worry and anxiety aren't going to just go away.  Well, I guess they could - like Dr. Wayne Dyer's miraculous healing of his knee - yes, St. Francis I would love the miracle of a photographic memory and the peace in my heart of knowing I will pass the Primordial Sound Meditation Certification course next week.

I know that my anxieties and worries are reflections of my perception of my own abilities.  I know that when I love myself without judgment - my world does not obscure the sight of Christ (of Love).  On that thought, I'm going to call it a night....
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