Why this? Why now?

I have given a great deal of thought to whether or not a blog is right for me. I have been on an amazing journey - some of it very sad, some of it profoundly joyful. Transformation is possible - I know because it is happening with me.

I can't say for sure when it all started, other than it started happening with tremendous regularity upon my 40th birthday. This may be a rather normal occurence - you reach a certain age and start wondering if this is all there is in life. Am I doing what I'm meant to be doing? Are my beliefs real - what are my beliefs exactly?

Here's a smattering of the journey -

I got a divorce and began to discover and explore life from a much different perspective.

I began thinking about my health and researching and reaching out to learn things like: what I should be doing to avoid heart disease. The book, The China Study, changed my life. I am now a vegetarian. This also led me to quit smoking....and finally to stop drinking, too (I don't care what the studies say - just eat the grapes instead).

I have embarked upon an incredible spiritual journey - from a comparative religions class, to studying Ayurvedic living (of which I'm now studying to become an instructor), to learning more about Buddhism, and, as documented here in my blog, an active study of A Course In Miracles.

I am in a place in my life where I finally recognize very consciously that what I put in my mind and in my body is what comes out. As I am reminded most days when listening to Deepak Chopra's soul affirmations, "My body is the garden of my soul."

May I be of vessel of spirit, of loving-compassion.

Yes, I do think a blog is right for me. Thank you for joining me.
Namaste,

mac

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

Day 264 - Lesson 263

My holy vision sees all things as pure.

This says in part:

A madman's dream is hardly fit to be my choice, instead of all the loveliness with which You blessed creation; all its purity, its joy, and its eternal, quiet home in You.

I have been reading the Yoga Sutras of Patanjali before bed.  I have been reading them aloud.  The sound and the vibration made by the sound when expressing the words truly resonate deep within an ancient part of my soul.  When we open our hearts to holiness and to the pure love of Source all of the craziness of the world becomes less powerful.

As I considered this lesson today - my crazy and busy day, I thought about how different my experience is now that I actively ask to be a vessel of spirit.  A day like today a couple of years ago would have ended in me being angry and likely picking an argument with someone, and most definitely several drinks to wallow in.  I would have complained about all of the stuff I had to do, all the fires I had to put out, about the craziness of....blah, blah, blah.  Truly mad.  However, I have re-framed all that with:

How can I help?
How can I serve?
May I be a vessel of spirit in service to others.

These questions and this mission have saved my life.
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