Why this? Why now?

I have given a great deal of thought to whether or not a blog is right for me. I have been on an amazing journey - some of it very sad, some of it profoundly joyful. Transformation is possible - I know because it is happening with me.

I can't say for sure when it all started, other than it started happening with tremendous regularity upon my 40th birthday. This may be a rather normal occurence - you reach a certain age and start wondering if this is all there is in life. Am I doing what I'm meant to be doing? Are my beliefs real - what are my beliefs exactly?

Here's a smattering of the journey -

I got a divorce and began to discover and explore life from a much different perspective.

I began thinking about my health and researching and reaching out to learn things like: what I should be doing to avoid heart disease. The book, The China Study, changed my life. I am now a vegetarian. This also led me to quit smoking....and finally to stop drinking, too (I don't care what the studies say - just eat the grapes instead).

I have embarked upon an incredible spiritual journey - from a comparative religions class, to studying Ayurvedic living (of which I'm now studying to become an instructor), to learning more about Buddhism, and, as documented here in my blog, an active study of A Course In Miracles.

I am in a place in my life where I finally recognize very consciously that what I put in my mind and in my body is what comes out. As I am reminded most days when listening to Deepak Chopra's soul affirmations, "My body is the garden of my soul."

May I be of vessel of spirit, of loving-compassion.

Yes, I do think a blog is right for me. Thank you for joining me.
Namaste,

mac

Thursday, September 15, 2011

Day 258 - Lesson 257

Let me remember what my purpose is.

Here's what else it says (in part): Let us therefore be determined to remember what we want today, that we may unify our thoughts and actions meaningfully, and achieve only what God would have us do this day.

Yesterday I said I was going to go to bed and pray about the lesson for that day and then I was going to wake up, ask myself the soul questions, and live the answers.  I did that....and I feel better.  I continue to feel a bit confused and I find that the question about what I'm supposed to be doing here continues to bubble to the surface for me.  I am having a hard time letting go and just letting life be in that particular arena.  However, I do clearly recognize that when I focus my intentions on living as a vessel of spirit - life is just plain better.

I do so want to simply achieve only what God, spirit, love, source would have me do each day.  This very moment is my life and I want to embrace it in a great big loving bear hug!
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