Why this? Why now?

I have given a great deal of thought to whether or not a blog is right for me. I have been on an amazing journey - some of it very sad, some of it profoundly joyful. Transformation is possible - I know because it is happening with me.

I can't say for sure when it all started, other than it started happening with tremendous regularity upon my 40th birthday. This may be a rather normal occurence - you reach a certain age and start wondering if this is all there is in life. Am I doing what I'm meant to be doing? Are my beliefs real - what are my beliefs exactly?

Here's a smattering of the journey -

I got a divorce and began to discover and explore life from a much different perspective.

I began thinking about my health and researching and reaching out to learn things like: what I should be doing to avoid heart disease. The book, The China Study, changed my life. I am now a vegetarian. This also led me to quit smoking....and finally to stop drinking, too (I don't care what the studies say - just eat the grapes instead).

I have embarked upon an incredible spiritual journey - from a comparative religions class, to studying Ayurvedic living (of which I'm now studying to become an instructor), to learning more about Buddhism, and, as documented here in my blog, an active study of A Course In Miracles.

I am in a place in my life where I finally recognize very consciously that what I put in my mind and in my body is what comes out. As I am reminded most days when listening to Deepak Chopra's soul affirmations, "My body is the garden of my soul."

May I be of vessel of spirit, of loving-compassion.

Yes, I do think a blog is right for me. Thank you for joining me.
Namaste,

mac

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

Days 344 - 347 Lessons 343 - 346

Being without internet service and being on the road in an intermittent mix over the past several days has put a real crimp on my ability to post.  While I was able to review my daily lessons, I wasn't able to blog about them.  I don't think any of us missed much.  I've been in a blog slump for awhile.  This 'break' may have been some sort of blessing....guess we'll see.

Lesson 343 - I am not asked to make a sacrifice to find the mercy and the peace of God.

Lesson 344 - Today I learn the law of love; that what I give my brother is my gift to me.

Lesson 345 - I offer only miracles today, for I would have them be returned to me.

Lesson 346 - Today the peace of God envelopes me, and I forget all things except his love.

I find that I am at a loss for words....after re-reading all of these lessons, I'm just not sure there is anything more to say.  When I maintain in my awareness the reality that God only wants my happiness, that I was created exactly as I was meant to be, that every gift of love is mine and that I don't need to force any solution and I don't need to struggle through life - well, that's all I need.  The tricky part is maintaining that awareness without allowing auto-pilot to switch on and slip back into the fearfulness that exists in much of our surroundings.

My life has been swinging between my home here and my new home there, my day job now and my dream job on the side....I'm feeling a bit discombobulated, but I know this for sure: I am loved, I am safe, and the shining light of the divine will guide me along the path I am meant to travel....
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