Why this? Why now?

I have given a great deal of thought to whether or not a blog is right for me. I have been on an amazing journey - some of it very sad, some of it profoundly joyful. Transformation is possible - I know because it is happening with me.

I can't say for sure when it all started, other than it started happening with tremendous regularity upon my 40th birthday. This may be a rather normal occurence - you reach a certain age and start wondering if this is all there is in life. Am I doing what I'm meant to be doing? Are my beliefs real - what are my beliefs exactly?

Here's a smattering of the journey -

I got a divorce and began to discover and explore life from a much different perspective.

I began thinking about my health and researching and reaching out to learn things like: what I should be doing to avoid heart disease. The book, The China Study, changed my life. I am now a vegetarian. This also led me to quit smoking....and finally to stop drinking, too (I don't care what the studies say - just eat the grapes instead).

I have embarked upon an incredible spiritual journey - from a comparative religions class, to studying Ayurvedic living (of which I'm now studying to become an instructor), to learning more about Buddhism, and, as documented here in my blog, an active study of A Course In Miracles.

I am in a place in my life where I finally recognize very consciously that what I put in my mind and in my body is what comes out. As I am reminded most days when listening to Deepak Chopra's soul affirmations, "My body is the garden of my soul."

May I be of vessel of spirit, of loving-compassion.

Yes, I do think a blog is right for me. Thank you for joining me.
Namaste,

mac

Thursday, December 1, 2011

Day 335 - Lesson 334

Today I claim the gifts forgiveness gives.

I will not wait another day to find the treasures that my Father (Source, Spirit, Love) offers me.

I added the Source, Spirit, Love part....the traditional images still affect me with a negative twinge.  I'm not entirely sure why, but they do.  My heart, however, recognizes the vital energy source to which we are all connected.

This evening I've been in that funky spot where I feel like I have too much to do, but I'm thankful, but still a little concerned about getting everything done and getting it done well.  I'm not hungry, but I want to eat.  I feel heavy, but I also feel joy (lightness) in my heart.  My mind is racing, but I want to rest.

I do recognize the treasures and gladly accept them.  Even when I am going back and forth between the swinging pendulum of life - it's all about balance and allowing life to happen and appreciating this moment.  It's also about letting go and allowing the funky spots to just be what they're going to be....because they always go away - usually sooner than later.
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