Why this? Why now?

I have given a great deal of thought to whether or not a blog is right for me. I have been on an amazing journey - some of it very sad, some of it profoundly joyful. Transformation is possible - I know because it is happening with me.

I can't say for sure when it all started, other than it started happening with tremendous regularity upon my 40th birthday. This may be a rather normal occurence - you reach a certain age and start wondering if this is all there is in life. Am I doing what I'm meant to be doing? Are my beliefs real - what are my beliefs exactly?

Here's a smattering of the journey -

I got a divorce and began to discover and explore life from a much different perspective.

I began thinking about my health and researching and reaching out to learn things like: what I should be doing to avoid heart disease. The book, The China Study, changed my life. I am now a vegetarian. This also led me to quit smoking....and finally to stop drinking, too (I don't care what the studies say - just eat the grapes instead).

I have embarked upon an incredible spiritual journey - from a comparative religions class, to studying Ayurvedic living (of which I'm now studying to become an instructor), to learning more about Buddhism, and, as documented here in my blog, an active study of A Course In Miracles.

I am in a place in my life where I finally recognize very consciously that what I put in my mind and in my body is what comes out. As I am reminded most days when listening to Deepak Chopra's soul affirmations, "My body is the garden of my soul."

May I be of vessel of spirit, of loving-compassion.

Yes, I do think a blog is right for me. Thank you for joining me.
Namaste,

mac

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

Day 362 - Lesson 361

This holy instant would I give to You.  Be You in charge.  For I would follow You, certain that Your direction gives me peace.

I had an experience today that initially made me want to cry.  It felt painful and I observed my thoughts that went from that old, "Fine, whatever, I don't care" to "Look at this situation with love in your heart."  I did not have an overt reaction.  I silently acknowledged and observed my thoughts and my feelings.  While it wasn't an enjoyable experience, it is progress.  I recognize the importance of not judging my feelings, just feeling them, and knowing that they will pass and move on.  I may still feel some pain and some sadness, but not to the extent that I lash out, withdraw, or create negativity.  I know that I have meditation to thank for this - and this ongoing study (and the other studies I've been consumed with for the past couple of years).  By being consciously aware of love and responding with love, I am honoring this lesson.  More importantly, I am honoring resolution.
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