* I was traveling yesterday (day 129) and could not get a good internet connection to post this.
The world I see holds nothing that I want.
This lesson is complicated for me. I think I have a fairly good grasp of what it’s telling me; however, the concept that each thing you value here is but a chain that binds you to the world, and it will serve no other end but this. For everything must serve the purpose you have given it, until you see a different purpose there.
I feel like I’m walking some sort of tight rope between two worlds. I would like to devote the majority of my time to exploring and studying the great spiritual belief systems – I know I’ve said this before. I have this intense desire to immerse myself in it and yet I also have an underlying voice in my head that doesn’t see how that could happen. I have responsibilities and how would such a venture be funded? Again, it’s these types of thoughts that I fully recognize keep my world small. Apparently I’m still struggling with being open to uncertainty and all that’s possible.
I know I can’t force this. That’s difficult for me. Though I do trust that the universe is exactly as it is meant to be – I will be more mindful of this moment and more appreciative.
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