Why this? Why now?

I have given a great deal of thought to whether or not a blog is right for me. I have been on an amazing journey - some of it very sad, some of it profoundly joyful. Transformation is possible - I know because it is happening with me.

I can't say for sure when it all started, other than it started happening with tremendous regularity upon my 40th birthday. This may be a rather normal occurence - you reach a certain age and start wondering if this is all there is in life. Am I doing what I'm meant to be doing? Are my beliefs real - what are my beliefs exactly?

Here's a smattering of the journey -

I got a divorce and began to discover and explore life from a much different perspective.

I began thinking about my health and researching and reaching out to learn things like: what I should be doing to avoid heart disease. The book, The China Study, changed my life. I am now a vegetarian. This also led me to quit smoking....and finally to stop drinking, too (I don't care what the studies say - just eat the grapes instead).

I have embarked upon an incredible spiritual journey - from a comparative religions class, to studying Ayurvedic living (of which I'm now studying to become an instructor), to learning more about Buddhism, and, as documented here in my blog, an active study of A Course In Miracles.

I am in a place in my life where I finally recognize very consciously that what I put in my mind and in my body is what comes out. As I am reminded most days when listening to Deepak Chopra's soul affirmations, "My body is the garden of my soul."

May I be of vessel of spirit, of loving-compassion.

Yes, I do think a blog is right for me. Thank you for joining me.
Namaste,

mac

Monday, March 21, 2011

Day 80 - Lesson 79

Let me recognize the problem so it can be solved.  This lesson was about practicing asking what the problem is and asking what the answer is.  We do this instead of assuming we already know the answers to these questions.

I find it so incredibly amazing - inspirational - comforting - and if I still believed in coincidence - I would have found this lesson coincidental with the rest of my day....or the other way around.

So, I study my lesson this morning and then attend the first day of my meditation retreat.  The lesson at the retreat focused on asking the questions, the usual questions - Who am I?  What do I want?  What is my purpose in life?  As Davidji reminds us - "ask the questions, live the answers."  Later today Deepak Chopra gave us additional soul questions to ask ourselves:
  • What kind of contribution do I want to make?
  • What makes me joyful?  What is a peak experience to me?
  • What are the best qualities I can express in my personal relationships?
  • What are the qualities I look for in a best friend?
  • What are my unique skills and talents and how do I want to use them to benefit others?
  • Who are my heros, my mentors, my archetypes in history, mythology, religion?
We ask these questions and in the silence of our meditation we cast them as seeds into the universe.  The answers come to us in myriad ways.

These lessons help me to better understand the importance of just being - of feeling secure in uncertainty, of having faith that all things are possible where love is present.
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